Thursday, 9 June 2011

I spit on you, infection!

..actually, I can't reach it because it demands a certain amount of contortion which I can't do and in any case, I can't purse my lips to spit! But you get the gist of it - the infection is on its way out, yippee!!! I now have some delightful photos on my phone where the doctor wanted to keep a record of how it was over the past few days so we could monitor progress. I don't think I will be posting them on Facebook, let's put it that way! Perhaps there is a fetish group somewhere which would pay me for them???

Nice to have some good news early in the day - in fact, just nice to have some good news!

My trip to the health centre meant another walk into town and back on my own. Not so many stares this time (I know I am very self-conscious at the moment but it still feels very new to me) but interestingly I seem to get more looks from older people than young ones - I kind of expected the opposite somehow. When I got into the doctor's surgery, I sat next to an old-ish man in the waiting room and he made no secret of the fact that he was staring at me, even to the extent of turning around and continuing to look at me after I sat down a few seats away from him. I didn't feel that it was appropriate to ask him if he wanted to know what had happened to me since he was clearly interested, but it was a bit unsettling. At the moment, I feel "safe" in my own  home and in the hospital or health centre, partly because in the the latter two places, the health care professionals just treat me as an ordinary person. And at home, my family just accept me as I am. It's harder when I go into public places like the small supermarket, which I had to do on my way home from the health centre. However, the checkout assistant didn't pause in his conversation with his colleague, so that passed off okay :-). I know it's human nature to look at someone who falls outside the "normal" range, but it can be hard to be on the receiving end of these looks. I know, I know, I have to get used to it but it's a big challenge for me at the moment. I was quite sad yesterday because I miss my old face. It served me well for 52 years and I always felt my smile was one of my best features and now I don't even have that any more. There will be a certain amount of grieving for what I had.

I bumped into my lovely hairdresser when I was handing in yet another prescription to Boots (for antibiotic eye ointment this time, as I had run out!) so that's another person who knows me who has seen my new look. We had a nice chat about new hairstyles and when she returns from her holiday in early July, I will book her to come and transform me - look out, world!!

I ordered some CDs from Amazon yesterday - despite loving my iPod, I do like the actual feel of a CD so prefer to import from a CD rather than download. I must be middle-aged, I think, as one of my CDs is the Definitive Guide to British Birdsong, so I can start to recognise some of the birds I hear in the garden every morning and evening!! The other is by Arvo Part  - modern classical, very soothing and utterly beautiful. I heard it in our neighbours' house on Saturday and absolutely loved it. Arvo Part - Spiegel im Spiegel if you want to listen to it.

This afternoon's plan - physio, a rest, a visit from two friends (one bearing lasagne for this evening's dinner, yum) and then more physio. Hopefully a walk later on when Neil gets home from work and if the rain which seems to be threatening to fall holds off....I am casting anxious looks at the washing on the line, because dashing out and bringing it in will just not be possible for me!

More tomorrow. Thank you for comments and Kindle advice :-)


    Ali that is another site i have used.
    Take it easy and remember recovery is good.

  2. Ali we always loved your smile, because of the person it was attached to xxx glad you have got the infection licked, so to speak, although I imagine that would be even more of a challenge than gobbing on it, you classy bird you. loads of love Loon xxx

  3. Hmm that old man - Maybe it's just a matter of getting used to things like that but if people are making you feel uncomfortable, you have every right to speak up.

    You are a lovely lady so don't forget there'll be times people just look at you because they'd have looked at you anyhow, and they won't have noticed your op.

    And if you are happy, you'll still shine. Maybe not as much through your smile but people will know. x

  4. Thats the spirit Alison; you've always been an inspiration to many and you're still doing it.

    My best wishes to you and family



  5. What Loon said in her first line :-)

  6. I know I'm a bit late with this, but if you like the Arvo Part, you might also enjoy Samuel Barber (he wrote more than just the infamous Adagio ;o) Knoxville: Summer of 1915 is particularly beautiful.

    Hope you are having a good week,
    Sarah x

  7. Thank you, Frodo - have ordered :-) x